Part 8 – I AM ADOPTED! I have a father.

The week after my confrontation with the priests I started attending a Bible study with Pat and a few other young people.  At the very first Bible study I attended, they were reading Romans chapter 8 and it was my turn to read verses 14-18. They told me later they were startled when I let out an enthusiastic exclamation and couldn’t contain myself. I read those verses again and again and asked if they really meant what they said:

“You have received the spirit of ADOPTION, whereby we cry ‘Abba, FATHER” … … we are the children of God … … and if children, then heirs; heirs of God and joint-heirs with Christ.”

I have a loving Father

Adopted - I have a loving Father

Pat showed me other verses too, which showed that God – the Almighty, the Creator, the PERFECT Father God, had ADOPTED ME into His own family, as His child: His adult, full-fledged heir.

When we first came to Australia, we listened to three radio serials which all had, over a period of a few months, one particular event that caused me much puzzlement.  Hagen’s Circus, Marten’s Corner and Blue Hills all featured a character who had found out he/she was adopted. In these serials, this was the BIGGEST CATASTROPHE anyone could imagine! It was as if it was the end of the world!  Total disaster!

I couldn’t see what was wrong with finding out you had been adopted, and it became one of my two favourite day dreams.  How I longed to discover that I had been adopted! It would mean that at one time in my life – even if only for a very brief time – someone had wanted me:  someone had wanted me enough to adopt me into their family!  Of course, when they found out how evil I was, things would have changed, but at least for a little time, they had wanted me!

I had known three “fathers” who had abused me in various ways. The last one had been the most evil person I’ve ever known. I was a man hater but I loved children. I was such a man hater that the only logical decision for me was to become a nun where I could look after children in an orphanage. I hated all men, and the word “father” filled me with contempt and loathing – and yet here was a loving, PERFECT Father, who LOVED me and who had ADOPTED me into His family.  The word “Father” took on a whole new meaning. I had experienced the love of this perfect Father. I knew this Father could never do anything that would harm me: on the contrary, He desired the very, very best for me. I was a totally different person.

My life changed so completely as I spent time learning from my Father God, through His Word. He had taught me the power of His Word during that week of confrontation and the lessons continued. I learned to trust Him and experienced His leading in so many ways. I read His Word at every opportunity.

My Father God constantly leads me

My Father God is in control and leads me

I have now known, loved and served my loving heavenly Father, through the Lord Jesus Christ, for 52 of my 74 years.  I have often been surprised at the way He has worked in my life, but I have never been disappointed. Time and time again He has proven the truth of His Word. He constantly undertakes for me and I have found it is the greatest privilege possible to be used by Him in His work on earth today.

No, I didn’t get to work in an orphanage, but my Father gave me the most wonderful husband, five absolutely wonderful sons, and literally many hundreds of children and teens through my involvement in children’s ministry for most of my Christian life.  Thank You, my loving heavenly Father.

I give HIM all the praise for what HE has accomplished in and through me.

Psalm 40:5  Many O Lord my God, are the wonderful works which You have done, and your thoughts which are towards us. They cannot be reckoned up in order unto You. If I would declare and speak of them, they are more than be numbered.

About meetingintheclouds

I am Cloudwatcher, a 76 year old Christian lady, happily married to a wonderful man for over 50 years. We have five wonderful sons, all with at least one University degree and in top positions in their chosen fields. One son is still single but four have found perfect wives and they have given us five lovely grandchildren. I was born in England and while I'm proud of my English heritage, I am doubly proud to be a true-blue, fair-dinkum Aussie. My husband and I are committed Christians whose first priority is to love and serve our risen Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ. My life story will tell of my journey from abuse to peace. I suffered 22 years of abuse, being constantly told I was totally evil and an ugly freak: no one would ever want me, so I might as well do the world a favour and kill myself.
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22 Responses to Part 8 – I AM ADOPTED! I have a father.

  1. Morena Nasso says:

    Wow, wow, wow! I am so glad that I FINALLY read your testimony, what an amazing journey you have had to the Lord! God is Good!!


  2. allthewaydoc says:

    What a wonderful testimony that you have! How I wish everyone was so lucky as to be open to the Lord Jesus Christ! So many perishing people who have so much bitterness and unforgiveness that they DONT want to part with so they wont accept Christ, heck, even a lot of “christians” will not allow themselves to be truly washed by the blood!! thank you for being a light unto the world!


  3. Rescued…redeemed…repaired. Isn’t God good!!! I thoroughly enjoyed reading your life story…every bit of pain was worth all the pleasure you have experienced in Him, with Him, through Him. I can tell…it pours from you. Bless you amazing woman of God! xx


    • Thank you Arlene. I am truly thankful for all the abuse and all the problems of my life, because not only did they help to make me what I am, but they gave me a ministry to others who suffer abuse and those who still suffer from previous abuse. Having three ‘fathers’ who abused me, and one who was so evil, I certainly appreciate having a PERFECT, loving heavenly Father whose love and care for me is beyond comprehension but so REAL.

      Wer serve a truly amazing God!


  4. Sister,
    I love how you love Christ!
    I am refreshed by your writing.
    He is a Father to the fatherless.
    Our Father.


    • Thank you. How can I NOT love Christ? He has done so much for me!
      God has been my Father now for 53 years and in all that time He has been everything I need – and more!
      What an amazing God!


  5. Freedomborn says:

    Hello Angela, I understand your life experiences your pain and humiliation, your anger and your despair because I have walked in your shoes and like you our wonderful God of Love has healed and restored, but many years of abuse has left me fragile and at times I call on Jesus for His balm of Love, the abuse and rejection tore apart my confidence as a person of worth, but He tells me over and over again I am indeed His precious one and He delights in me. Thank you Angela for sharing from your heart and as God continue to bless you greatly my your life be enriched even more, now and Eternally – Christian Love your sister in The Lord Anne.


    • Hi Anne.
      I guess in some ways we never get over the years of abuse in our formative years. Things are so deeply ingrained into our very natures. The communists used to say ‘Give me a child till he is seven and I have him for life’ and I believe this holds much truth. However, the power of God overcomes all else and when we trust in Him and His promises, we are “more than conquerors” in Him.

      I expect that like me, you can look back on your early years and thank God for everything that happened. It is gone and we are better for it in many ways . . . but I have to admit that at times I see the “old me” – the low self esteem, the lack of confidence, the wanting to hide – all those things with which I am sure YOU are familiar. Sometimes it is difficult to overcome these feelings, but EVERY time we set our focus on HIM, HE gives us victory.

      What an amazing Father God!


      • Freedomborn says:

        HI Angela very True what you shared, my battle has been a hard one and still is in some ways, but God continually reminds me the Battle is His and that He will heal me completely and I hold onto that Hope.

        I look forward to sharing with you some more Angela, I’m just on my way out now but hope to spend some time getting to know you through your Hospitality on your Blog, I can see already that you Lovingly offer The Lord’s Hope to the hurting and deceived, I thank God for your kind and Loving heart and I’m thankful that our lives touched.

        Christian Love Anne.


  6. What a riveting story. I just finished the whole thing – from terrible abuse and tragedy to healing and hope and over 50 years with a Father and friend to walk with you through every joy and sorrow. I am so impressed with how you have allowed God to recreate you into what He wants you to be, a blessing to others who are struggling like you have. His blessings….

    I met another blogger who has experienced some deep and similar pain in her early life who is still recovering. Maybe you could offer her words of healing that come only from those who have gone through the fire. Her blog is Her hope is in Jesus but she still struggles as she deals with a very ugly past.


    • Hi Joy.
      Praise God for the difference He makes in a life! My story is all to HIS praise. I had NO thought of Him when He stopped me in my tracks and revealed Himself to me. He is indeed an amazing God and the perfect Father. How amazing that the perfect, almighty, creator God would want and love a sinful being and adopt her into His own family! What an amazing God!

      I will go now and have a look at that blog.
      I’ll check yours later but I only have a short time before I have to start cooking dinner.


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  8. perfectlytainted says:

    What a beautiful example of Christ’s unfailing and perfect love! I am so happy for you and all He has blessed you with. It is amazing that He took those horrible 22 years of abuse that you suffered and turned them into a never ending testimony by using them to aid you in your ministry and help others receive and know Him. He is the best Father we could ever have, and you said it exactly right when you called Him your Everything.

    If you are still reading my journey, hang tight. There will be a few speed bumps in the road, but I, too eventually find my place in Christ’s loving arms. The path getting to this point was long, spanning over a period of about 12 years, and not at all easy. But through it, He never left me and eventually I found my way Home; and will spend the rest of my days giving God the glory! Thank you for sharing your story. I was blessed abundantly by it.


  9. Laura says:

    A timely post, I’m blessed tonight to have read it.
    Thank you.


  10. Ben says:

    This story was a real blessing to me. My dad is an amazing man, and I had never even considered how someone like you might read this verse. Your perspective on this passage is really amazing. Thanks so much for writing it down.


    • Thanks Ben. My perspective was born from years of extreme abuse which made the idea of a Father God – or a father of any sort, or even a man – somewhat repulsive to me.
      In my search, I had concluded that IF there was such a person as God, He would have to be perfect. Pat spoke much of His perfection and in the first weeks of my Christian life, God Himself proved it to me. Then, to find that I was ADOPTED into His family was mind blowing – and still is, 52 years later!


  11. snowgood says:

    Chosen. We have been. Rob Parsons heads up a charity called “Care for the Family”. He challenges us to be more like The Father.

    The analogy works best for men. You’re at bank and all the windows are open. On left is the blonde 25 year old with a fabulous figure, on the right a less confident looking “mature” lady. Which desk do you choose?

    We’re urged to choose the one on the right! Make her day. It’s counter intuitive, but it has to be done if we are following “The Way”.


  12. timbob says:

    Good morning. Actually the title of your blog caught my attention (meeting in the clouds; I love it) but this is a most incredible truth. while we were yet sinners and contrary to the righteousness of God, he sought us out. What an incredible salvation we have in Jesus, who was tempted in all points a are we, but was yet without sin.

    Blessings always in Jesus name.



  13. hazeleyes77 says:

    I love this! I can tell you I felt the same way when I read these verses! I wasn’t adopted but had a very abusived “earthly father” I had confused him for many years with our Heavenly Father, but after I stopped feeling sorry for myself, I now feel so very blessed to have our Heavenly Father in my life and to be filled with the Holy Spirit. Thank you for this reminder once again. God Bless! :)


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